4 years old

Today is Jeb's 4th birthday. I can't believe that I have a child that would be that old. We had some angelfood cake and sent 4 balloons to heaven for him. (Hyrum was a little torqued when he realized the balloons weren't coming back). It's always a bittersweet day for me and I think of him the most on this day. I compare him most to Hyrum; but even that's hard b/c I know they'd be different. I guess what gets me through is the knowledge that I will have him forever someday and that someday he will open his eyes and look at me. I'm very excited for that day.